Wednesday Words: Difficult Words

This week we’re supposed to be talking about the most difficult thing we’ve ever written.  Because I almost always have a song in my head that relates to what I’m talking about, I’ve been singing this song every time I think about typing this post. LOL

I suppose the most difficult thing I ever wrote was a short story that I wrote for a creative writing course that I took for fun between degrees.  I can’t remember what the prompt was, but I wound up writing a true story even though it was supposed to be fiction.  I wrote about my experience the night that someone in my family attempted suicide and II made it into a first person story.  The subject was difficult, of course, but more so was putting words to all of the feelings I had that night and following day.  Then of course there was the worry that the story wouldn’t be “good enough” for the class.  I remember getting the paper back from the teacher, who was kind of an asshole and didn’t understand the creative part of creative writing.  He didn’t particularly like the piece, but of course he didn’t know that what he read had actually happened. I was just happy to have finally written it out for myself and shared it with the class even though people didn’t know it was true.

Another thing that I wrote that was difficult was my coming out letter to my family.  I’m naturally shy and so telling my family anything was difficult.  I also didn’t want to be like,”Gather round, everyone, let me tell you a story!”  So I wrote a letter, printed it out and mailed a copy to my mom, dad, brother, sister in law, and my sister in law’s mom.  :p  Not only did I come out as bisexual, but I also told them for the first time about my dysthymia and that I was taking medication for it.  I don’t know why I was so damn scared, because they all took it really well, but I was terrified that at least one of them was going to be a jerk about it.  Well… someone was a jerk, but not to my face.  Honestly, I think I was most worried that my being bi would seem like a let down to my mom or dad because there was the possibility that I wouldn’t have a traditional marriage/relationship which I assumed they always hoped I would have.  But now that we’re seeing marriage equality slowly but surely sweeping the nation, I’m not so worried about that anymore. 🙂

Now, let’s see what the girls all had to say about this topic. 🙂

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